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Arggg, why can't I just be honest all the time. I hate social rules, like what you can and can't say, how well/long you have to know someone before you can say they're a friend, or cross certain conversational barriers.

Dating is a joke. What's the point? I had this attitude for so long, I didn't feel I needed another person to validate me, I looked at friends who'd been through heartbreak and failed relationships and I just didn't get it. But then, for the first time in two years, I was stupid enough to let myself fall for someone - I know it's stupid, I barely know him! He's just wonderfully sexy, interesting and seems totally fun! He was lovely in messages, and sweetly ignored it when I said something stupid or made a fool of myself, I thought wow, this guy seems great, even just as a friend (although preferably a friend with benefits? haha), would love to get to know him. Buuuut, I was stupid, I let my guard down, I fell easily for this guy, from just a couple messages! Now I don't know where I am or what to think. He last contacted me almost a week ago, now he's just stopped, he's obviously ignored my message on facebook because I can see he's been on there, and I'm not sure how to take it. I don't think I was too full on, I acted kind and fun and triedddd to avoid telling him how bad I want to screw him, I just ugh dont get it!! I'm not going to go chasing after him, smother him with 'why are you ignoring me?' messages or anything - I just wish that if he's decided he's not interested, he'd damn well tell me! I've no idea whether I should keep my hopes up, keep waiting for that reply, or what. And if I have been rejected, I just don't know how to accept it, because I don't know why! I didn't say anything that meant we couldn't just leave it to chatting occasionally on facebook if he wanted, that doesn't bother me at all, I didn't say it had to be full on or anything he didn't want! I don't know him well enough to just come out and be honest with how I'm feeling, I'm still at the stage where I have to over think everything I say because I'm wanting to give the right impression. He asked me if I wanted to go for a drink in his last reply to me, which was nice (although I reckon I am entirely the one pursuing him rather than the other way around at all) but then it's just..now I'm being ignored!