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Its sad but true. I know there are people out there who have been lucky enough to find a true friend in the work place, but it has never worked out for me.

I have been hurt and betrayed by friends outside of work, but then I don't have to see or speak to that person ever again if I don't want to.  When I work with them, I still have to look at them and it makes life harder.  I feel like there's no escape from a bad thing and it's very stressful.  I love my job and I'm proud of the work I do.  My job can be pretty stressful by itself, but when there's also drama to deal with, it's really depressing.

The same thing just keeps happening no matter where I work and for some odd reason I always believe the next time will be different.  I'll befriend a coworker and then we'll become close and spend time with each other and  confide in each other as friends usually do.  We'll talk about work and problems we might have with a coworker...usually the same coworker.   It never fails that the person I thought who was my friend decides to befriend a coworker that we both said we didn't care for and, out of nowhere, they become really close friends and then trust issues develop.  The person I thought was my friend will of course tell her new close friend about all the personal things we talked about.  I don't understand why people feel the need to do that.  I'm a very understanding person and if my friend befriended someone whom we both said we didn't like and discovered that we were wrong about that person, I have an open mind about those things.  I can admit when I'm wrong about someone, but why hurt me in the process?  If someone doesn't want to be my friend, then fine,  I understand that people come and go, but why be cold and cruel?  I am not perfect and I can't say that I have never hurt someone, but as I've become wiser by learning some important life lessons, I discovered that it's so much easier to be a kind and caring person.  If I don't like someone, that person has to give me a good reason not to like him/her.  It's unfortunate, but there is always going to be someone I don't care for and it's usually someone who's miserable and wants everyone else to be.  I don't bother to waste time on a person like that and I don't get pleasure from making that person's life any worse than it already is.  A coworker I don't care for is a little different because it's harder to avoid that person when I have to work with him/her and when I have to be around a miserable person who happens to be my coworker, it gets stressful and I need to vent.  But I have discovered the hard way that the best way to vent is to keep a journal or vent on an awesome website like this.  I know that I am writing a novel here, but I have so much to say and since I spend the majority of my time at work, I have no one I can trust to listen and not blab.             

  It's sad that I spend most of my time with my coworkers and there can't be a simple friendship without issues.  I just need to come to terms with the fact that I am the rule, not the exception.  So in order to get rid of added stress in my life, I will continue to keep things casual with my coworkers.  That means keeping things on the surface and keeping my guard up.  This, of course, is another life lesson learned and about time too.

  
Thank you so much for anyone who takes the time to read this.   I apologize if I seem like a whiner, but getting all of this out and seeing all the words I've written really helps and it shows that I've gotten a lot of crap out of my system and off my shoulders so I can relax.  Don't hesitate to tell me all about your issues at work too.  I'll be happy to read all about them.  I feel your pain, people.