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Aaaaarrgh. How do I get myself into these situations? So Kev and I had broken up, we were both getting on fine, best friends, he was seeing someone, I was enjoying singledom, when all of a sudden we wind up in bed together? It's so stupid! Now we're both screwed, because he's realised he's still kinda in love with me, I'm wondering if I should have broken up with him, and we're both terrified of the lynch mob if people find out.. I'm not sure which one of us is worse off, him with the girlfriend he might end up hurting, or me who isn't sure if she should continue seeing people casually or hold out for him. Gaaaaaaaaaaah.

Dating is a joke. What's the point? I had this attitude for so long, I didn't feel I needed another person to validate me, I looked at friends who'd been through heartbreak and failed relationships and I just didn't get it. But then, for the first time in two years, I was stupid enough to let myself fall for someone - I know it's stupid, I barely know him! He's just wonderfully sexy, interesting and seems totally fun! He was lovely in messages, and sweetly ignored it when I said something stupid or made a fool of myself, I thought wow, this guy seems great, even just as a friend (although preferably a friend with benefits? haha), would love to get to know him. Buuuut, I was stupid, I let my guard down, I fell easily for this guy, from just a couple messages! Now I don't know where I am or what to think. He last contacted me almost a week ago, now he's just stopped, he's obviously ignored my message on facebook because I can see he's been on there, and I'm not sure how to take it. I don't think I was too full on, I acted kind and fun and triedddd to avoid telling him how bad I want to screw him, I just ugh dont get it!! I'm not going to go chasing after him, smother him with 'why are you ignoring me?' messages or anything - I just wish that if he's decided he's not interested, he'd damn well tell me! I've no idea whether I should keep my hopes up, keep waiting for that reply, or what. And if I have been rejected, I just don't know how to accept it, because I don't know why! I didn't say anything that meant we couldn't just leave it to chatting occasionally on facebook if he wanted, that doesn't bother me at all, I didn't say it had to be full on or anything he didn't want! I don't know him well enough to just come out and be honest with how I'm feeling, I'm still at the stage where I have to over think everything I say because I'm wanting to give the right impression. He asked me if I wanted to go for a drink in his last reply to me, which was nice (although I reckon I am entirely the one pursuing him rather than the other way around at all) but then it's just..now I'm being ignored! 

Why is it that some people feel the need to go on social sites and post bullshit and lies ? This is highschool bullshit and it is very sad when those people are grown adults , who have no better thing to do but spend all of their time ( and by that I mean  any where from 12 to 16 hours on it .) What is really sad is when other people who really don't know these people ,or know what is really going on in their lives respond and post things that they think is helping , but in fact is only slapping another person in the face. So maybe if when we are on other socail sites and we have friends who post something and we really don't know that person and know the whole issue , we may want to stop for a moment and ask ourselves " Is this person posting us the truth Or are they always having drama going on?"

Why do people in realationships like to be pushed around by their partner? I dont get it, how can somone take mental abuse from somone and not leave the other person?? Why in hell would you want to stick around with that person?
There has to be somone out there for you who doesnt treat you like horse shit! Are they used to it so much that they have to have it? Do they like it? WHY GOD! Just leave the asshole and move on with your life.

Can somone out there tell me why people allow this to happen to themselves?