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Just so you know

I tried to come up with a better title

But that just says it all

We will start from a few weeks back. My GENIUS (ha) father, has gotten it in his head, that the law still requires me to go see him for the holidays.

I want to state that I am almost 20, I haven't lived with my mother for over a year, and he still thinks he can whine at her to get me to go see him.

Now, he is telling my mother that he will come get my younger brother. All fine an dandy the kid is 10, yes per custody agreement he does have to go there for the holidays. Then he proceeds to tell her that I better be coming too, because I was required to go also. She tells him,

1) she is an adult, the law can't help you there

2) she doesn't live with me anymore, shes on her own

Well, whatever, I'm a nice person what can I say?

I like my stepmom and the other people that live/ visit their house.

Not my father that much though.

Well, I am here right now. This is my first visit since last Christmas.

Did I mention I was a vegatarian? No? Well, now you know. Everytime I visit, without fail, he will say something and piss me off about it. "oh hey Jackie, do you want some turkey?" "I'm gonna chase you around with a pound of beef" "I'm gonna grind this sausage into your eggs while you not looking!" Little shit like that. Usually doesn't bother me and for the most part I ignore it. I have been coming to this house once a month for 3 years. Well, up until Christmas, but none the less, EVERY TIME, he does something like that. I used to just let it go, sit in my room and just be pissed at him. Well, I have grown out of that now, and have gotten to a stage in my life, where I don't give a flying rats wig what you think, who you are or what you are gonna do, I am gonna tell you what is on my mind and if you piss me off enough, it will end up with my just blowing up on you.

Last night, we are all sitting down to eat. There is 8 of us. We all get our plates ready and there is a bit of teasing, but I'm trying to be nice, so I just ask them to stop and they do. There was one last comment, and when this comment is made, it is right when my father is getting some turkey for himself. So of course he has to jump right in on this and with the tongs say "here ya go, this one is for you" well something along the lines of that. Basically, I had just had it so I snapped. "Can we just have ONE meal with out that shit? PLEASE!" Still trying to be nice. So that shut everyone uo (even the ones who weren't picking on me) for a few minutes. Then, not too long later, he makes a comment that has me ready to just punch him square in the jaw, and he is damn lucky that I was on the other side of the table. One person saw the look I gave him and giggles and is like "just deep breaths"

Everyone here knows I can't stand the man. They all get it. Hell, most of them can't stand him. So they try to keep me sane, because they have already gotten past it all and can look past it now. They know I will just go off on him eventually and, though they await it with baited breath, they still try to stop it for the time being.

They were all wondering why I never come visit. Then I come here and they all see why.

There is more, but I do believe that if you have made it this far, you are about ready to have it end. If you didn't make it this far, I totally understand, but since you didn't make it, you wont see this, so you wont know that I understand.