I am fucking sick of feeling so shit all the time. I am a genuinely decent bloke, no baggage, no addictions, no tendency to violence...and I just get used and abused by every girl I come into contact with. The most recent piece of shit to destroy me is a whore named A**, who pretended she was dying of heart failure in order to convince me to 'share what little time we have left'. She has cheated on me, left me, ignored me and manipulated me emotionally for two years. She stopped me from travelling on my gap year, alienated me from my friends, kept tabs on  me, accessed my Facebook, Hotmail and phone records to make sure I wasn't doing anything she didn't approve of...and the whole time she was messaging her ex-boyfriend behind my back. She then selects the same university as me and convinces me that when we are closer together things will work so well and we'll walk hand in hand into the sunset...and then without telling me, changes her university application to go to a university 4 hours away! And it just so happens, may I add, that her ex-boyfriend attends this university. She then refuses to break up for university and tells me she wants it to work. I then spends my freshers week behaving incredibly well, steering clear of all possible temptations...and then 2 weeks later it's her freshers week. AND I LOG ON FACEBOOK TO SEE SHE HAS BEEN TAGGED IN PHOTOS GETTING WITH SOME RANDOM BLOKE ON THE THIRD NIGHT OF UNIVERSITY.  She flat out denies it was what it looked like, all the time complaining that I am preventing her from enjoying university. BUT THEN SHE REFUSES TO LET ME GO. I am too much of a push over, and to cut a long story short, after convincing me to give her  another chance over the Christmas break, she then goes back to university and plays the exact same fucking game. Ignoring phone  calls, dressing obscenely, acting obscenely, lying about whereabouts and refusing to visit, or to let me visit her. She managed to cash in on a free 3 week holiday to Florida with my family and convince me to give her ANOTHER chance...and then 3 days before my first end of year exam...she dumps me AGAIN, and the reason?! Because she was fucking the first team hockey captain. And even though she has put me through all that...I am still here at midnight, the night before a 9AM exam ranting on the internet about her. I am an addict. I'd rather try to give up heroin than this girl...she has wrapped her manipulative fingers around every call of my body and will continue to use and abuse me until she runs out of uses. FUCK MY LIFE.

P.S. I never knew how good it would feel to anonymously rant into cyberspace